Distracted

the whole day i've been trying to read my fortune magazine. it always ends up being distracted by someone who delivers stuff or wants to draw stores. i'm trying my best to finish it asap because i currently have 2 more issues waiting for me at home. damn it.. so much for 'being consistent' but nevertheless! i'll finish it =)

met up with Rachel last night to go IKEA. we're looking for curtains to block her working area from the slping area. it's a great idea. we're looking thru the cool designs and nearly wanted to buy something which wasn't really of her choice. she was hungry and tired.. i wish i could just fry some of my potatoes for her to eat. yummy =) good thing is.. we didnt buy anything that night. we knew that if we made a decision, it wouldn't be very ideal. that means IKEA, we're gonna visit u again. i like going IKEA with Rachel. she's very excited about furniture and thoughts of us having our own place floods my mind. i am trying my best to come to work everyday. partly it's because i don't wanna miss her for 2 weeks.. but the main reason is because, i need this money. dun get me wrong. it's not that Rachel needs/wants me to pay for her. i just don't want to be a bum and miss work all the time. definitely, it's not healthy.

anw just to go off course awhile, this guy called me and spoke to me in hokkien. ( a language i'm not proficient in ) and i spoke it back to him. hahha feel so proud of myself. damn it martin.. u're good.

i'm going to end work soon. tonight will be dinner with Rachel and her parents. i feel so lucky that auntie and uncle both talks to me. last night auntie talked to me about uncle's concerns and i think i handled it well. i know what i'm doing and it's wad's best for me. i won't do something detrimental to myself. definitely. then she talked to me about her work.. which i felt a bit like i was talking to Rach because both of them likes sharing and me, i like listening and sharing. and tt's something i'm proud of. because not many ppl listens to others. well done martin =)

after that i helped Rach set up her facebook stuff.. it's kinda simple la.. she just don't have enough exposure to it. and i'm glad to be of help to her too. in a way.. i see this as helping her realise her dreams and mine too of course. the way i see it.. it's a good chance for me to do and learn from Rach. like wad i mentioned to her on the coach back to s'pore.. she's a good influence. i think auntie knows it.. but for uncle, it might take some time.. because of their old mindset. it's not their fault.. they're programmed this way.

I just hung up the phone with Rach. i told her how much i miss her and how much i can't wait to see her, hug and snuggle up with her tonight. i love her. and i've taken steps to ensure that this wouldn't just be a game for kids.. but a game for adults who knows what they're doing.

Rach, I Love you.