Property Agent

Pa just signed me up for a property agent course. it stretches from 7-9pm every mon, wed, thurs and fri from 2nd june till 17th june. i'm going to be a successful property agent! with the knowledge i gathered from EAP, i'm sure i can do very well as an agent. i will/must persevere. i know that it's not going to be easy to be a property agent but i will succeed and be a millionaire by 30!

Rachel, i know that this is going to be a tough time for us. because i'll have very little time to spend with you and enjoy like how we did. but i'm doing this for our future. i don't wanna wait anymore. i've gotta do something and i'll make it happen. =) i'm sure you'll understand my love. i love you!

work's getting more and more boring. i've been here ever since nov and it's going to be 7 months that i'm working here. i'm amazed by my patience and tolerance. there're time when i really feel like quitting but the thought of not having any income scares me. i guess tt's why i perservere.

Wednesday

It's mambo night tonight.. but i'm not going again. it's a habit that i'm cultivating right now. to keep away from clubbing as much as possible. there're lots of benefits doing that.

1. save money
2. have enough slp
3. you won't be exposed to loud music that can potentially hurt your hearing
4. you won't have girls looking at u as tho u're going to touch them anytime soon.

well these are just some of the benefit. there's hell lot more of them. anw Daren's back from UK. not bad la quite a good timing because i'm going to end work soon and i'll be more free to enjoy myself and not worry about whether i go work the next day or not.

things between me and rachel are progressing. now i'm going home more and having more time for my family and myself. i think it's something both me and rachel want - to have some time for ourselves - and i'm glad to be with her and have her love at this very moment. i really am grateful and happy about that. she understands my need to rest and recuperate from our late slping nights and i love her for being so understanding. thank you my love! =) i'm going to meet her later. can't wait for that to happen! i'm coming home soon my love! I LOVE YOU!

Good Start!

What a good way to start my day. today when i was taking bus to work, the traffic was good and the seats were readily available for me. such comfort and luxury in an sbs is quite hard to come by especially in the early morning.

when i reached office, chan helped me ask the technicians for the work order for the parts they drew. so thankful that actually he's clearing it for me. in a way i think he's clearing it for himself too. because he knows that when me and mei chan leaves, he'll be left with all the work himself. so he'd better clear it when i still can help him charge out the stuff. haha.

Max's 21st Birthday

Went to KAP Macs for Max's 21st birthday bash. we had loads of children fun over there. most of them weren't very on about it.. but i did. i didn't care i just wanted to have fun and in turn let others have fun too.

what happen was this lady called herself auntie. and when she said she's 2 yrs younger than max.. i was damn stunned. omg.. can't she be more adaptable? haha oh well.. probably it's part of her job and script la. we played the 'chicky dance' and 'chu chu train' hahaha it was ridiculously fun. then we had our meal.

it really was a birthday for kids and i'm sure max and the rest had a good laugh and fun. best wishes to u max!

EAP.. and life..

It's been a week since i've posted. these days have been very busy. with EAP meetings and my own life. i'm actually enjoying myself doing so many things and learning at the same time.



i'm in charge of my team's business proposal plan. but i'm kinda stuck at where i am because i've yet to find out how to handle e rest of e stuff like the business concept and i'm just generally kinda lost la. Jim has taught me a lot that night, but i don't think i've absorbed as much as he wanted me to. -as i'm typing this i'm dozing off on my seat- today is really a good day to sleep. the cooling weather and cosy office that i'm in just makes me wanna zzzz at this very moment.

Recently thing between me and Rachel hasn't been excellent. We're still doing good, just that Rachel seems very confused and doesn't know what she wants. I can't 101% tell you what i want in the future but i can 100% tell you that i wanna be with her right now. i guess ultimately, it's the financial stability issue that's troubling her. i don't blame her for feeling that way. she's 26 and how much longer can she wait? EAP and another seminar in end june.. is that going to bring me success? i really really really want to make it. so what am i waiting for? what's stopping me? hai.. i've really got to figure that out.

Today damn sway. i took the bus to work at the normal time. when i reach my destination, the shuttle bus just left right in front of me. i was like 'wth'. i went to the main road and try to stop it, it went by already. worse thing is, i didn't know there's another trip at 815. i called pa to come fetch me already. hai.. just not a really good way to start a day. but so far it's been good, and i'll be seeing my babe soon. i miss you lovely!

Stay strong!

yesterday wasn't exactly a very good day. in the morning, ma called and asked why didn't i go home yesterday. i answered her 'so?' then she hung up. I'm not sure also.. am i being too rude? someone please enlighten me. the problem is that i can't stand talking to her. she's so negative and always trying to pull my enthusiasm away. the way she ask me questions always piss me off. always giving that black face. i wanna try to make things better but i just can't. i don't know why also. i think both of us gotta do something about it. she's expecting too much from me and i'm expecting too much from her. it's not healthy at all man.



work was ok.. nothing special happened here.. just having more stuff to do in a shorter time. i like this.. time actually passes faster this way.



when i went for a run after work, i realised that the road leading to chinese gardens is now opened! i went for a jog there and it's really beautiful. gotta go some day to enjoy and relax. home is not bad now.. clearing up stuff and cleaning up are the few things i like to do and marcus and sharon is going to build their nest at home like how me and rachel built ours. so i started moving my stuff also.. but i don't think i'll complete it anytime soon la too busy.. it' s good to let marvin do something about it also. but then again.. as a lazy boy.. i don't think it'll affect him la. sometimes i wish i just had my own lil room.

9-May-08

Rainy day... again..

Couldn't wake up this morning.. again.. i think i've a slight problem with my slping habits. if i slp early, i can't wake up in the morning. if i slp late then i can wake up. weird isn't it.

had my EAP group meeting yesterday. phew it was a lot of information coming in at the same time. i had difficulties catching their conversation. i guess one thing i can improve on is to take notes on what they're talking about. especially Jim. i think he's e most experienced and outspoken one. i've to learn from him.. take it in if it's bad.. correct it if it's wrong. Rachel talked to me on the phone last night. she said i shouldn't focus on my weakness only but to see how can i improve them. actually i already had them on my mind. it's just that at that point of time.. i really needed someone to help me across the difficult path. i concluded that it's only excuses i'm giving myself. i've to be strong for things to work out between us.

i called Rachel this afternoon. we chat and she was down this time. i supported her and let her know how beautiful she is. she's my goddess, queen, sweetheart, love.. i love her!

Clearer

Just spoke to Rachel on the line awhile ago. you see, things aren't exactly going well for us. we're facing problems of her feeling that we're seeing each other too much that resulted us having more unhappy moments. personally i do not feel that way. however, sometimes people think that they feel a certain way about things but they didn't take a step back to see if it's really what they think. sometimes people use feel to make decisions rather than think to make decisions. and more often than not, it's not the right decision.

so we chatted on the phone and came to a decision that what we're doing now, having space and me going home, is what's best for us. on top of that, we've decided not to have sex before we get married. but that's going to come slowly, we're progressing day by day at a comfortable pace. so we're planning to have sex for once a wk first. then we slowly reduce it. i think that'll be easier to cope and healthier too.

During EAP the last 2 days, my energy was kinda low. i'm not sure why too. probably it's me giving too much attention at the beginning and i'm not able to follow through. on sunday night, i talked to Rachel about it. she shared with me that pacing is very important. if one would to chiong so much at the start, one'll definitely lose steam if he's not conditioned to it.

i'm very grateful what Rachel has done for me and to me. without her i'll still be clueless and leading the life every normal person is leading. thank you for making me your choice lovely.

I love you, my goddess!

Back from Changi Airport

just came back from changi airport and some dim sum place. the food was excellent especially the mee sua thingy.

this morning i went to NTU for my medical check up. everything went smoothly and i'm proud that i woke up earlier to go for my check up because i was the first few and didn't have to wait very long.

after my examination, i went to clementi to take a bus back. teng sms-ed and say she wanted to meet for lunch. we had some miscom that she had problem with han wei but actually it was my intepretion that was wrong.. partly because her response was bad also la. so anw.. it was me talking about A and her talking about B.

in the afternoon, Rachel and i went to balestier to have bak kut teh. it wasn't that fantastic.. sad to say.. but it's e company tt was great =) then we headed off to ikea to buy our blinds. altogether, all the furniture cost 137 bucks. i was stunned initially.. but after that i realised the 2 blinds already coz 100 bucks already. ohh and in the end, we had semla. she didn't eat too much coz she's scared to try new food. but i enjoyed it. hahah =P

i fell aslp when we came back cause we found out that they didn't have a drill nor sand paper to put up the curtain. woke up around 7 plus and left for bugis to meet uncle soon lai and auntie kim to go pick up shu yan from the airport. we had dim sum and came back home.

currently.. i'm blogging.. think i'm falling sick. omg.. better drink more water. tmr's EAP! i can't wait for that to happen. hopefully i'll recover by tonight. plsssss...